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Ya…… another blog from irenecoconut…… if u ask me what i think abt this world…..unfortunately, i can only use the words like ” disappointed”, ”no hope”, ”fake”, ”dramatic” to describe wat’s going on in this world now……

i realised tat the capital city is full of faker……. even the one u trust so much, also the SAME!!!!!!!!! of course i felt pain abt that but that’s a past……. this kind of people is no longer in my life as in like i’ll treat them from my heart…. no way man …….

i’m so disappointed with my self also lah b’cause i’ve change like any one else….. being fake….. i hate myself of doing that but …. i have to ……. i know i’m trying to find all kind of excusses for being fake but ….. i dont know how to explain it anymore……

i’ve shared this topic with few of my friends, their opinion is that we need to be mature enough to survive in this world…… i dont agree n i dont object it either….it’s true, u know…… i cant change the fact, fact is always urgly and unacceptable….. but we still need to stick to that theory, accept it by being ”biasa” in that kind of situation …….. i always think what’s ”mature” means? ”mature” = fake ? aih!!!!!! i always dont want to become like the majority out there but and i’m damn proud of that fact….. pround of not being faker….. but …. now, after exposed to teh society…….. i’ll become one of them ….. naturally ……

so…… wat’s the meaning of life? i really confuse…. and i’m no longer excite abt that…… y? huh !!!!! life is meaningless in nature……

But luckly, by Praising Him, i’ve found my position in supernature life…… i care nothing anymore except HIM, i’ll do nothing else unless is for HIM……. this is the reason y i’m here, facing all the fuckable people…… i have no strength to do that but HE have, the world …… will never bit me down…. i’ll show u ……. because i carry His will and u, no one, pls just get of from my way or else i’m kind ur ass until u have haemorrage…. mua ha  ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

Well, i don’t really like to write blog because i dont really want people to know what am i thinking in my mind. i tot i can handle everyting by myself, i always think i’m stong and independent enough to face all the difficulty in life…… well….. recently i found that this theory is no longer woking in me anymore…. y? em… i guess because i never face the really difficulty in life….what is mean by difficulty ? definition? i dont know, but i think this is really subjective… depends on different individual ….

Now, i start to understand y people r addicted to ‘blogging’ ….. one month ago, i had a sudden urge to write a blog, just to express my feeling about this world….. may be this is one of the sign and symptom of having depression….he he!!! it’s quite hard to convince myself tat i’m actually is under the risk of it …. u know, people like me…. most of my friends will say that i’m a crazy la , fun la, sporting la, active la……… pra pra pra n pra la….. yah… that’s me…. so what, i can tell u that having this kind of characteristic is not a prevention of having depression……

Ok, back to the question… y am i writing this blog? of course not because i’m too free or wat la….. actually i think this might be one of the way of getting rid of having depression. just like what others do, they’ll whatever they feel in the blog, ‘beisongness’, ‘madness’, ’self satisfication’, and so on lahhhhhhhhhhh……. whatever they cannot say it out in real life, then, they’ll syok sendiri by blogging…. and ya, i admit,  i’m now one of them … a pengecut syoking sendiri in frienster blog…… this is life…. huh ?